Thank you Head (my testimony)

I just want to thank Brian for making this album and sharing with the world his life so honestly. I've never heard truth said so plainly in this way before. I just want to share some things, because if any of us say the truth, it destroys this world's ugly lies. Each song speaks so clearly to me, and helps me in my journey, in a way I haven't found anywhere.

I was abused every way- physically, mentally, sexually... since I came into this world, until I got saved at age 29. I was beaten by my mother when I was infant, r*ped by my father, abandoned, hated, & abused by everyone I came in contact with. I became suicidal at age 15, my existence was a solitary black hole that I had to endure. I looked for any way out, but found none. I turned to drugs, sex, alcohol, that only made everything worse & there was no way for me to untangle myself from those things. So I overdosed alot, cut myself, ended up in a hospital every month. I just wanted someone to save me. I overdosed on a bottle of anti-depressants after coming down off coke- in the hospital again & sent to detox. But this time was different. I layed in bed sobbing uncontrollably, I couldn't stand being in my own skin. Something different happened then. I knew somehow I had to go to church & find God. This was different for me because I spent so much time running from him. When I got released from there, I threw away my drugs, & all contacts with any guys that could get me drugs. I went to a church that taught about Jesus, and that he died for each one of us. I gave my heart to him, & have never been hurt in those ways since. It's been 5 years. I've spent the last few years peeling apart all the lies & hate I endured, now with God by my side I can do it, slowly. I don't want to preach, just share my life. The lies are so deep that I still have a hard time accepting God's love for me & trusting him. It's okay though, he's so patient with me, I NEVER ever experienced kindness & love like this. He has never left my side.

I know of so many people that these things have happened to them. And there is a way out & there are people who care. If anyone wants to send me a message, feel free. I am a single mom of 1 child, and am 34 years old. Change is terrifying at first, but it gets better. God will always be there to catch us.

Thank you Jesus for bringing me to life and enabling me to share this message.

Brian, God bless you & I hope you continue to help others to overcome those things the world never speaks of.

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